The meaning of anonymity

A very brief reflection on life

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To be, or not to be (anon)?

I go through periods of having a lot to say and having almost nothing to say. Crypto Twitter has exacerbated this problem, as I’ve felt required to say something interesting or beneficial almost everyday this past three months. I think it’s time I take a break.

Being anon has its perks. Nobody (except for maybe a select handful) knows who you are or what you do in the real world. Sure, many of you know that I’m a college freshman and I’m (gasps, who knew!) nineteen - but nobody really knows me for me. Not even I don’t.

I’m incredibly grateful for the magic internet money that’s been able to alter the course of my life. Without discovering Solana or Bganpunks months and months ago, maybe I’d have all A’s in my classes right now, struggling to find internships for the summer. This is no longer the case. I actually consider dropping out a lot, partially due to wanting to participate in crypto full-time and also due to the fact I’m pretty bad at being a STEM major. Maybe I’ll figure things out one day. I haven’t even had to use my resume once in crypto, but that’s a topic for another day - just another perk of being anonymous.

It’s been really fun meeting a lot of you online. Sure, there are some dickheads here and there but it isn’t really an issue or something that makes me lose sleep - I don’t get enough of it to toss and turn in bed at night in the first place. I’ve made a ton of friends and have been able to have some seriously life changing opportunities given to me in such a short amount of time. I’ll spare you of any shoutouts, but mostly because I don’t feel like copying down a million different Twitter usernames right now.

Being able to write for an audience has always been a goal of mine. I’d spend a lot of time in high school trying to write fun articles for the school newspaper, but didn’t really catch onto the fact that nobody actually reads the school newspaper. No big deal, I have a substack now. As my articles gathered more attention, my twitter gained more followers than I knew what to do with. Thankfully I never tweet anything stupid, only ramblings, Apple Music screenshots and the occasional “alpha” tweet.

It’s been fun. At this point, I’m just not sure what direction to go with my Twitter. Being anon is great because you start with a blank slate and are given the opportunity to be anyone you want to. You can larp as a trader juggling 9 figures or you can larp as the next 100x dev that’s going to build Tesla on-chain. The opportunities are really endless, and you can take this as far as you wish.

For me, I don’t really have a niche. I liked DeFi a lot at the start because it made sense. Curve Wars, on-chain options protocols, anon mega-millionaires and billionaires fighting against each other whilst operating under pepe PFPs and god only knows what else. This was all very easily crafted into stories and informative articles that I enjoyed writing about. Now, I’m just not so sure anymore.

I feel like I need a break from crypto, but at the same time, I feel that I should be spending all my time studying docs to dig up the next big narrative (which will never come, by the way) in order to become better versed in the technicals. Whatever it is that I need to do, I know it can’t be done in college. I love to write and it’s probably the only thing I’ve ever been sure about doing. If I can write about crypto and make a living that way, then I will do my best to make it happen.

I want to be the best at what I do. I’ve become disappointed in myself lately after seeing how many good writers are out here beating me in the substackooooor game. I think it’s time to double down and take a hiatus. From there, I’ll come back better informed and stronger than ever. I can’t call myself “Knower” in good faith if I’ve begun to doubt the breadth of my own knowledge and means of obtaining it.

If I could finish off this semester for every cent to my name, I would. The only thing I’m looking forward to is being done with my first year of college, getting back home and of course, getting back to work on crypto with nothing else to bother me. I have made some mistakes along the way - I spread myself too thin and believed that I could do anything if I put my mind to it. This strategy only works for about a month or so, then you begin to realize how difficult it can be juggling every aspect of your life on 4-5 hours of sleep a night while trying to be some kind of DeFi superhero that knows everything going on in all corners of CT. It’s tiring.

Maybe I need a nice 48-hour nap, a back massage and a long drive with the windows down. Who knows.

But I do know in my heart that it’s time to focus on what I want to achieve in life and how I wish to go about getting there. If this means taking a break from twitter to amass more knowledge, so be it. The app isn’t as fun when you’re mostly in stables, anyways.

I’m incrdibly grateful for having the platform I do - my only wish is I could provide quality content as often as possible. I have high hopes this day will come soon. Until then, you can always DM me on twittah dot com or shoot me a message on telegram.

Peace.